Wednesday, November 21, 2012

She braved it for a moment or two with an eye full of love and stubbornness

She braved it for a moment or two with an eye full of love and stubbornness, and murmured a phrase or two vaguely of Gen. Pinkney; but at length down went her head and out came the truth and tears.
"I couldn't get any pupils," she confessed. "And I couldn't bear to have you give up your lessons; and I got a place ironing shirts in that big Twentyfourth street laundry. And I think I did very well to make up both General Pinkney and Clementina, don't you, Joe? And when a girl in the laundry set down a hot iron on my hand this afternoon I was all the way home making up that story about the Welsh rabbit. You're not angry, are you, Joe? And if I hadn't got the work you mightn't have sold your sketches to that man from Peoria.
"He wasn't from Peoria," said Joe, slowly.
"Well, it doesn't matter where he was from. How clever you are, Joe --and--kiss me, Joe--and what made you ever suspect that I wasn't giving music lessons to Clementina?"
"I didn't," said Joe, "until to-night. And I wouldn't have then, only I sent up this cotton waste and oil from the engine-room this afternoon for a girl upstairs who had her hand burned with a smoothing-iron. I've been firing the engine in that laundry for the last two weeks."
"And then you didn't--"
"My purchaser from Peoria," said Joe, "and Gen. Pinkney are both creations of the same art--but you wouldn't call it either painting or music.
And then they both laughed, and Joe began:
"When one loves one's Art no service seems--"
But Delia stopped him with her hand on his lips. "No," she said-- "just 'When one loves.'"
  当你爱好你的艺术时,就觉得没有什么牺牲是难以忍受的。
  那是我们的前提。这篇故事将从它那里得出一个结论,同时证明那个前提的不正确。从逻辑学的观点来说,这固然是一件新鲜事,可是从文学的观点来说,却是一件比中国的万里长城还要古老的艺术。
  乔·拉雷毕来自中西部槲树参天的平原,浑身散发着绘画艺术的天才。他还只六岁的时候就画了一幅镇上抽水机的风景,抽水机旁边画了一个匆匆走过去的、有声望的居民。这件作品给配上架子,挂在药房的橱窗里,挨着一只留有几排参差不齐的玉米的穗轴。二十岁的时候,他背井离乡到了纽约,束着一条飘垂的领带,带着一个更为飘垂的荷包。
  德丽雅·加鲁塞斯生长在南方一个松林小村里,她把六音阶之类的玩意儿搞得那样出色,以致她的亲戚们给她凑了一笔数目很小的款子,让她到北方去"深造"。他们没有看到她成——,那就是我们要讲的故事。
  乔和德丽雅在一个画室里见了面,那儿有许多研究美术和音乐的人经常聚会,讨论明暗对照法、瓦格纳①、音乐、伦勃朗的作品②、绘画、瓦尔特杜弗③、糊墙纸、萧邦④、奥朗⑤。
  乔和德丽雅互相——或者彼此,随你高兴怎么说——一见倾心,短期内就结了婚——当你爱好你的艺术时,就觉得没有什么牺牲是难以忍受的。
  拉雷毕夫妇租了一层公寓,开始组织家庭。那是一个寂静的地方——单调得像是钢琴键盘左端的A高半音。可是他们很幸福;因为他们有了各自的艺术,又有了对方。我对有钱的年轻人的劝告是——为了争取和你的艺术以及你的德丽雅住在公寓里的权利,赶快把你所有的东西都卖掉,施舍给穷苦的看门人吧。
  公寓生活是唯一真正的快乐,住公寓的人一定都赞成我的论断。家庭只要幸福,房间小又何妨——让梳妆台坍下来作为弹子桌;让火炉架改作练习划船的机器;让写字桌充当临时的卧榻,洗脸架充当竖式钢琴;如果可能的话,让四堵墙壁挤拢来,你和你的德丽雅仍旧在里面,可是假若家庭不幸福,随它怎么宽敞——你从金门进去,把帽子挂在哈得拉斯,把披肩挂在合恩角,然后穿过拉布拉多出去⑥,到头还是枉然。
  乔在伟大的马杰斯脱那儿学画——各位都知道他的声望。他取费高昂;课程轻松——他的高昂轻松给他带来了声望。德丽雅在罗森斯托克那儿学习,各位也知道他是一个出名的专跟钢琴键盘找麻烦的家伙。
  只要他们的钱没用完,他们的生活是非常幸福的。谁都是这样——算了吧,我不愿意说愤世嫉俗的话。他们的目标非常清楚明确。乔很快就能有画问世,那些鬓须稀朗而钱袋厚实的老先生,就要争先恐后地挤到他的画室里来抢购他的作品。德丽雅要把音乐搞好,然后对它满不在乎,如果她看到音乐厅里的位置和包厢不满座的话,她可以推托喉痛,拒绝登台,在专用的餐室里吃龙虾。
  但是依我说,最美满的还是那小公寓里的家庭生活:学习了一天之后的情话絮语;舒适的晚饭和新鲜、清淡的早餐;关于志向的交谈——他们不但关心自己的,也关心对方的志向,否则就没有意义了——互助和灵感;还有——恕我直率——晚上十一点钟吃的菜裹肉片和奶酪三明治。
  可是没多久,艺术动摇了。即使没有人去摇动它,有时它自己也会动摇的。俗语说得好,坐吃山空,应该付给马杰斯脱和罗森斯托克两位先生的学费也没着落了。当你爱好你的艺术时,就觉得没有什么牺牲是难以忍受的。于是,德丽雅说,她得教授音乐,以免断炊。
  她在外面奔走了两三天,兜揽学生。一天晚上,她兴高采烈地回家来。
  "乔,亲爱的,"她快活地说,"我有一个学生啦。哟,那家人可真好。一位将军——爱·皮·品克奈将军的小姐,住在第七十一街。多么漂亮的房子,乔——你该看看那扇大门!我想就是你所说的拜占廷式⑦。还有屋子里面!喔,乔,我从没见过那样豪华的摆设。

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